Where to put the tears

Tears for no reason are overwhelming me right now. I really don't know where they're coming from. I want what I don't have right now and that's you. I realize that there were no empty arms after you, but that doesn't include my empty heart. It's longing and missing you more than ever before. But why here at work? Why when I look at your sister do I burst into tears. She looks back at me with sad eyes and to reassure her, I say I'm okay. I've learnt to cope and accept with grief even this far. Love you my baby x