When grief returns

The hardest thing about the way you left us, is that it's like grieving all over again for you! This time up close and personal with every detail and image of you. In the early hours I cry for the grief I never quiet felt when you passed, it's a bittersweet feeling that brings up the hardest of emotions. Why you? Lawyers refer to you as 'victim' at times and Mr Ripia other times. Exhibit A, page this and page that, that I always get this pull in my heart string that it's 'you' they're referring to. My tears can't contain themselves, that my last memory of you sits with me in a courtroom. How can I now rise above that memory? Where ever you are Brandon, I know you say she didn't mean it. But something in me knows you said it to protect her, so that any charges pressed would be light. If you had of known your life hung in the balance, would you have said those same words? Without a doubt I know you would of, that's the love you had for her. Need strength today to firstly get there and home, to be strong for my girls and for your uncle. Love you B ❤️